It was past midnight. I should’ve been asleep. But I couldn’t shake that nagging thought. I kept thinking and thinking…
Have you ever wondered what to do when you know what is right, but simply can’t bring yourself to do it?
I’m not here to judge you. We’ve all been there. As a matter fact, I’m there myself, asking how– how should I handle this?
Some time ago, I was at a fellowship meeting with several families. Some of the children and youth headed to the park to carry out some activities. I didn’t know anything about it. They had planned everything without me. I saw it. And I was hurt, because we were such close friends. One of them invited me to join them, but I decided that if they planned without me, obviously I wasn’t needed, so I wouldn’t join them. In the end, however, I decided to go and see what they were doing.
When I got there, I was among three girls who were offered the opportunity to help one of our leaders with a task. Nursing my hurt, I used their unintentional exclusion of me to justify me grabbing that opportunity. My friends were very gracious in allowing me to help the leader without any protests. They even offered to help me out if I got tired later on. But me? I was selfish.
Halfway through the activity, a boy came running to tell us that we were in an off-limits area. Our leader started to hurry us up, saying that we had been warned and needed to wrap up before we got caught. I felt a twinge of guilt.
I knew it would only be right for me to speak up and say that we should leave immediately since we had been warned, and to leave the place myself if they refused to listen.
I knew it was right.
But I couldn’t do it.
I didn’t want to look like the “good girl” among them all. I didn’t want to fall out with them for being “legalistic.” I didn’t want to lose my place among them. I valued their “acceptance” of me, and I wasn’t ready to sacrifice my “position” as part of the group to do what I felt was right.
The next day, as my family dined together, one of us informed the rest of a work-related appointment that was to be held on a Sunday. It was the only day the relevant parties would be available, and because the meeting involved a major decision, this family member agreed to the meeting.
I thought about the matter for a few days. It’s a fine line between catering to others’ needs and compromising our own beliefs.
If the person explained his/her beliefs, and politely disagreed to holding the meeting on the Sabbath day, the business opportunity might have been lost, and the weeks of hard work would go to waste.
On the other hand, however, if this person were to say, “Okay. I don’t usually work on a Sunday, but since this is such a rare opportunity, I’ll meet up with you,” the other parties to look at Christians as hypocrites- people who don’t walk their talk, and are willing to compromise their beliefs just to gain something.
I don’t know about you, but it got me thinking about how, so often, we know deep inside what’s true or false, what’s right or wrong- but seldom act on it.
Living in faith requires trust to a good degree.
Suppose I were to lose my circle of friends because I lived my faith. It would require a lot of trust on my part to believe that God would continue to use me and provide me Godly friends.
Suppose the relative were to lose the prospect of being repaid after a series of insane workhorse. Would it be possible to trust God with such a big thing? The thing that would pay the bills and feed the family?
It requires TRUST.
Living in faith requires trust.
It’s not easy. It’s a thin line between not compromising and being a servant Christian who loves and provides for others.
But there is no thread so fine it cannot be seen in the sun.
In trying situations like these, let us hold that fine thread to the light of God’s wisdom and Word.
Yes, it’s all about living in faith.
But yes, it also requires trust, as cliche as that may sound.
It’s perhaps the biggest figure of the equation, but we learn.
I’m here learning with you. Stay strong.
Trusting is tough. It’s all right. We struggle together.
And perhaps the most important thing to remember is that He won’t leave us where we’re at.